After some meditation this Holy Week, i realized that there was no point in crying over someone who doesn't want me anymore. Sure, I was hurt to the point of desperation but i wasn't about to spend the rest of my life wallowing in misery. There was more to life than this senseless agony.
Heartbreaks can only last as long as we want them to be. I have a choice to end this pain. I have the chance to make myself better and whole again... even without him. I survived most of my years on earth without him by my side. I can make it on my own.
I know it wouldn't be a piece of cake or a walk through a park but I made a promise to myself that never again would I allow anyone to hurt me this much. Why should I go on longing and crying for someone who has fooled me into thinking that I was the ONLY one? Why would I waste my time and effort on something that was a lie from the moment he denied having relations with another?
I was nothing to him now.. Nothing. But he will be SOMETHING in mine. Because he will become my perfect example of someone to be beware of in the future. He has taught me a lot actually. I learned not to give my heart that easily, not to trust someone with your whole heart and soul. Like the sand on the shore, I will wash away all the impurities this experience has brought me and let the waves of the coming tide drift me off to a new horizon.
