high expectations

in between applications and job interviews, it took me this long to write.. anyway, the supposed to be "big" date was not so great after all. More than a week ago, we met for coffee at this hip place at the mall. i was looking for someone who was wearing a blue shirt. i saw someone wearing that color through the glass door. his back was behind me so i couldn't exactly see what he looks like. from his texts, he described himself as tall and lanky, moreno and kind of cute. those were his words.
i took a deep breath and tapped his shoulder. i was going, "hi, im carrie--", he turned around and i stopped in mid-sentence. he was NOT kind of cute... not even close. Ohmigod! Yes, he was tall and lanky but that was it. I quickly regained my composure and sat down opposite him. i wanted the day to end right then.
forgive me for saying this but i was not about to be seen by my EX with this guy. I was thinking more of a boyfriend material type of guy. like my ex.. he doesn't have to be Mr. Universe you know. just someone decent looking.. This guy, Vince, just didn't have that X-factor that i was kind of hoping for. he sounded really nice on the phone and sweet in his texts. Guess i was really disappointed. Vince said he was kind of cute! DUH... so that's what it means when a guy says he's "kinda cute".
out of respect, i went through with the coffee date even a movie afterwards. thank God it was a weekday. Few people were at the mall that day. he kept trying to hold my hand during the movie. i was careful to keep my hands away from him. what made him think that i like him anyway? i will never see him again. damn this friend of a friend who gave this guy my number.